I have absolutely no idea what's going on with me.  I've been married for 3 years and I've been with my wife for 11 years now.  i've been struggling with fantasizing myself as a woman ever since I was a kid.  Not crossdressing or doing normal things that women do but with sex.  i love women.  i used to be aroused by them as well.  I still see them and get a nagging feeling of arousal but for some reason it's more difficult to get aroused now.  I constantly have to imagine I'm a woman getting fucked to get hard now.  My therapist seems to think this is because of excessive masturbation.  thatI have dweveloped some sort of compulsion for this particular theme.  So I have been abstaining from masturbation.  the trouble I have is what if this doesn't go away?  i've had it for so long I can't imagine NOT having it.  What do you all think out there?